Nothing worth having comes
easily. It takes strength, dedication, and perseverance to get what you want. I
can promise you, that after years and years of trying it myself, wishing will
get you nowhere. I always said that there was a switch in my brain that needed
to turn on in order for me to start losing weight, but as I get deeper and deeper
into this journey, I realize that’s not true.
It’s all about making decisions;
decision, after decision, after decision. You have to wake up and decide that
you’re going to change your life. If you haven’t decided, you’re not ready, and
that’s okay. But if you are ready, get ready to make some difficult choices.
Decide that you’re tired of the way you are and want to change. Decide that you’re
going to prioritize your health over everything else. Once you make the first
decision, the next one gets a little easier.
I decided I was done. I was so
tired of being tired and waking up every morning with nothing exciting to look
forward to. I was sick of back pain, sick
of knee pain, and I was sick of feeling like my lungs were going to collapse if
I had to park any farther than the first few spots in the parking lot at
Walmart. I didn’t enjoy the embarrassment of purposely arriving early at a restaurant
before my friends to request a table because I couldn’t fit in a booth. I had
to order slip-on tennis shoes from Amazon because I could no longer bend over
to tie my shoelaces, and I had to forget even trying to sit down at an outdoor
event because I knew I would break the chair.
I’ve lost 50-pounds so far, with
about 150 more to go before I reach my ultimate goal. Some of the thoughts
above still race through my head, but I’m working on that. I’m working on being
kinder to myself. My life is slowly changing before my eyes, and although some
of those decisions I was telling you about may be hard to make, I promise you each
and every single one is worth it. It seems like I have something new and
exciting happening every day, whether that be noticing my reflection changing in
the mirror, the number on the scale going down, or somehow finding a new way to
love myself just a little bit more.
Each day is not easy, but I have
decided that being happy is easier than being sad and miserable. I have to
decide that every day, and sometimes it’s super hard, but I have finally decided
to put myself first, and I am so excited to see what happens when I don’t give