Create Yourself

Have you ever accomplished something you never thought you would and felt overwhelmingly proud of yourself? Today, I did. 

I jogged my first two-miler in over three years. When I started my weight loss journey again, after gaining back 90 pounds, I never thought I would be able to hear MapMyRun come over my headphones to tell me my two mile stats ever again. I thought ever going over a 15 pound loss was a lost cause. At over 300 pounds (again), I felt defeated. 

Some of you may think two miles is nothing, and that's your prerogative, but today, in this moment, it means everything to me. For two months, I stayed at 1.5 miles, being too tired or too scared to push myself to my limit. But, I finally did it, and I couldn't be more proud of myself. 

I'm almost three months into my new journey, and I've gotten rid of 42 pounds so far. It's been a difficult, fun, tear-filled three months, but I wouldn't trade it for anything. Nights like tonight are what this journey is all about. The journey is not about finding yourself, but creating yourself, and I can't wait to see what great things the next three months will bring!